The Messengers

I'm watching this show now called "The Messengers". It's been very inspirational. I will show you what I mean... The first speaker of the night was this woman with a heavenly voice and sharp wit. This is the poem she recited as part of her speach dealing w/ struggles.

I wish for you,

the attainment of all the great things you pursue.

For you see, I wish for you,

your engagement of the act of pursuit

of life and love of joy and peace

of happiness and abundant feats

of amazement and accomplishments

of miracles and unbelievable documents to chronicle

your disbeliever’s astonishments.

For I wish for you the limitless possibilities of life.

No negativity, just positively, no overwhelming strife.

And although obstacles for you will come,

I wish for you the constant knowledge

that not one of them owns power over you.

For I wish for you the power to renew your strength.

In times of testing and what may seem like punishment,

but know that it is just nourishment for your determination muscle

you see it grows when your back is bent.

By the enormity of the weight straddling your shoulders.

Now I do not wish that all your wants simply appear.

But I wish for your seeking, so you'll meet what is dear

and intended for your career, for your mission and your purpose.

No coincidences just divined worship ordained in truth.

Cuz you see all that is intended shall be provided unto you.

And this is my wish for you, my daughter.

Pimp my dog

Um...never mind

Grey's Anatomy - Prom

GRACE by Kate Havnevik

I'm on my knees
only memories
are left for me to hold

Don'’t know how
but I'll get by
Slowly pull myself together

There'’s no escape
So keep me safe
This feels so unreal

Nothing comes easily
Fill this empty space
Nothing is like it seems
Turn my grief to grace

I feel the cold
Loneliness unfold
Like from another world

Come what may
I won'’t fade away
But I know I might change

Nothing comes easily
Fill this empty space
Nothing is like it was
Turn my grief to grace

Nothing comes easily
Where do I begin?
Nothing can bring me peace
I've lost everything
I just want to feel your embrace


I was watching some of Grey's Anatomy today. The last episode of this year (season 2) they had a prom and this song was played...it made me think of someone. Even after being married for almost two years, I still think of him. The first time I saw this episode and heard this song, I cried. I believe that once you love someone it will always be with you 'till the day you die. I'm glad Zhen understands this and accepts me for who I am...along w/ this "flaw" in me. It still hurts a lot sometimes. Sorry...in a weird mood.